Billy Coconuts: Archive

An Answer

So the ocean spat him back out And roared: “I do not want this either. What should have been could not have been, but here this is for you. What should have been could not have been, all that you’ve been through.” And she awoke, as from a long dream Knowing why it was she dreamt

Jan 9th

Wholly dissected

With tomorrow’s dawn, a drowsy yawn, waking blissful reprieve The day embarks, on its windy path, tempting warm relief Bright sun, cold wind Holding back stiff sorrow Nothing there, sad skies, dark nights She cries to sleep, and kicks as to cry. Hauntings grow ever distant, but never gone Tomorrow we’ll live, but night brings the past Will it last, Will the pain contrast. Will...

Dec 31st

Home again, but not there Thankful for what I have, but wishing it was something else Off tomorrow, back to there Wistful eyes, tired lies, told to no one new Who am I, and howcome why I’ve sought for shelter, lived the skelter yet here I sit tonight Lone with the sound, voice in hand I sit, I think, no longer need I ask Born to bear, and these thorns I will wear

Dec 31st

love a lie

To love a lie Would you rather die Would it silence your cry From the pain of truth Question and look back Could it save your tack Compromise what you lack Listening to the wind, will it blow all night Hold me close, it will be alright

Dec 31st

Todays Word is luminal

liminal \LIM-uh-nl, adjective: Relating to the point beyond which a sensation becomes too faint to be experienced. Yes, it was luminal, here where he stood; at the very juncture between all those heaps of culture - he poked at the air behind him with his elbow - and all this thoughtless sea. — Jane Alison, The Marriage of the Sea

Dec 17th

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Todays Word is Boondocks

boondocks \BOON-doks, noun: 1. A remote rural area (usually preceded by “the.”) 2. An uninhabited area with thick natural vegetation, as a backwoods or marsh. They keep passing him and he remains alone, blotted to the evening by velvet and buckskin-if they do see him his image is shunted immediately out to the boondocks of the brain where it remains in exile with other...

Dec 15th

Why

No good news has come my way in quite some time, but I feel undaunted and fortunate to have a family that loves me and a beautiful girl to share my troubles. The past 5 weeks have been the hardest of my life, yet they have seemingly flown by. As if I am observing the events from above, looking down at me sitting here typing, holding back a flood of emotions that have been gathering for years, with...

Dec 15th

Word of the day irony

Today my word of the day was Tristful - Full of sadness; sorrowful. Probably has been one of the worst days of my life and I’ve been extremely sad all day. Lets hope tomorrows word of the day is exuberant.

Dec 3rd

“Love is the only engine of survival.”

– Leonard Cohen (via fuckyeahzenmind)

Dec 3rd

I can’t believe my life has unfolded like this.. and into this. How did this happen?

Dec 1st

i need to escape to a happy place, but I feel like that place has crumbled

Nov 3rd

Halloweenish

It was nice spending time at the beach. The sun was so bright, and it was always up early, waking you with it and begging you to take off somewhere. Maybe to the porch to watch the glare over the sound. Fishers Island across the way, The Race stoically standing through the dumpling pass. The lone cormorant basking on his rock. Abby’s rocks - except for his. Lucky was gracious and kept us...

Nov 1st

Kings of Leon

I am proclaiming now that Kings of Leon will go down as one of the very best bands to come out of the 21st century. Their fifth album, Come Around Sundown is a complete masterpiece. They are getting huge, huge attention right now, deservedly.

Oct 22nd

Isis

Isis or in original more likely Aset (Ancient Greek: Ἶσις) was a goddess in Ancient Egyptian religious beliefs, whose worship spread throughout the Greco-Roman world. She was worshiped as the ideal mother and wife as well as the matron of nature and magic. She was the friend of slaves, sinners, artisans, the downtrodden, as well as listening to the prayers of the wealthy, maidens, aristocrats and...

Oct 22nd

some days I feel like just saying fuck it all and giving up completely. I am totally at the end of the rope, not even discretely the tide needs to change, the winds need to shift I feel I’m asking for a miracle, when its really my gift

Oct 19th

i am so terrible at budgeting, mostly because I so deeply wish I had more money than I do.

Oct 18th

Oct 16th

If you don’t know where you’re going, any road will get you there. - George Harrison

Oct 15th

A day in bed

From sex to cookies to the paper Thats how every day should be lived

Oct 11th

Problem Solving

I think one of the biggest mistakes people make in their day to day lives is believing that the affect of the problem is also the cause of the problem. fixing problems requires you to understand the root cause of the problem, and to understand the root cause of the problem you often have to set aside your biases and everything you want to believe about the affect. finding the root of the problem...

Oct 7th

“The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas...”

– F. Scott Fitzgerald

Oct 7th

feeling awesome today

crushed a run in the rain, its cold and its definitely October. I just came off one of the best weekends of my life and they just seem to keep getting better. I went water skiing on saturday, in the late afternoon - so peaceful out there. can’t wait for the leaves to really start changing, and then for winter

Oct 5th

Its been almost 5 years

Its been almost 5 years exactly since I started my business. I was 22. I was on the front page of the business section, I had everything going for me. Two years after that we were making tens of thousands of dollars a month. I bought a new car, I had two apartments. I took vacations to Hawaii, Paris and the Outer Banks. Life was great, my business had turned into something real. One day shortly...

Sep 30th

“When I’m watchin’ my TV and a man comes on to tell me how white my...”

– (I Can’t Get No) Satisfaction

Sep 30th

I like you because I feel like you and I have done the same things and been to the same places, just in our own time and in our own way. When I look at you I see someone who’s been through a lot, lifes been tough, but its been good. And somedays you wish you could go back and change it all, but then you realize you wouldn’t change any of it for anything.

Sep 30th

“Waking up when you got a baby, you feel like you drank a bottle of whiskey the...”

– Shit My Dad Says

Sep 28th

Naturally Tragic

Falling leaves to empty trees and the colors that precede Memories, linger strong and simply won’t recede Crisp mornings, cool to touch but warm you with a bite Eerie winds and brushing limbs mystify the night Shifting shapes and stunning shades recast by mother’s magic You wake each day, conflicted; Its beautifully, naturally tragic - For Abby

Sep 24th

Chinatown Blues

Walking through the madness downtown, witnessing all sorts of sights Daylight brings the panderers and the tourists, but wakens up for the nights People from all walks of life, foreigners stroll along gloating while bums moan with strife Ladies covered in ink, its the street carts and the people that produce that stink, Sell me that rolex watch, everything and the kitchen sink Blow that...

Sep 22nd

I want to be who knows what and god knows where, but hopefully its someplace nice with someone great

Sep 22nd

“I’m livin’ in a foreign country, but I’m bound to cross the...”

– Bob Dylan

Sep 22nd

Ones real life is often the life that one does not lead - Oscar Wilde

Sep 20th

the only constant in life is change

Sep 19th

Do you ever wake up and feel like something changed? I woke up today an felt like a connection was a little less strong. I feel more in control now, and am kind of feeling better about the relationship although… well lets just say I tend to get ahead of myself.

Sep 19th

Sep 18th

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Sep 17th

“The very first company I started failed with a great bang. The second one...”

– Max Levchin, PayPal co-founder

Sep 17th

Sep 16th

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Thoughts from Mid September

First: A quick thought - zip-flys are significantly more convenient than button flys. Second: Is it weird when your girlfriend send you a bunch of songs she likes and some of them get filtered by iTunes into a playlist called “I <3 U”. My initial reaction is yes, it is weird but its ok. Makes me laugh and brings some levity to the situation.. Also I freakin’ love fall

Sep 16th

“You never know son, maybe she’ll be smart enough for both of ya’”

– Old Guy in Roadhouse

Sep 3rd